A 1st timer's journey through pregnancy, motherhood and overcoming postpartum depression...
Friday, June 11, 2010
Lord, help me, help my baby sleep.
He's been crying for I don't know how long. He didn't take any good naps today and he's REFUSING to go to sleep for the night. I've read the books. All of them. I am still in the dark of what to do and when to start. I need a step by step..and I mean detailed..instruction sheet. I am not good at taking a book like, Healthy Sleep Habits, and putting it into effect in my sons life. Do I follow chapter "Months one thru four" or "Five thru twelve" He's four months old, but the chapter one thru four, doesn't help me in my situation, Dr. Weissbluth! I would hire a sleep consultant to come to my house in a heartbeat, if I could find one in Nashville. I can't find one. I need someone stronger than I am to help fix this. Easton is obviously a sleep deprived baby. I haven't taught him good sleep habits. Or I don't know if I could have, with all his feeding problems. At this point in my life, I don't look forward to anything. I admitted to my mom today, that if someone would've have told me what I would look like, feel like and be dealing with right now, I would've NEVER even had a baby. That is horrible. It's horrible and it's extremely sad. I have a beautiful baby boy, who didn't ask to be brought into this world, when some women try and try to have a baby and can't. I am painfully aware of that..so keep those comments to yourself. I just want for one day to be enjoyable. I just want to not dread nighttime, or nap time, or feeding time. He's screaming...and screaming...and screaming..and screaming..and screaming..